Starcrossed Lovers

Spokenword ~

Some nights I stare out of my window and catch a glimpse of the moon, Im reminded of you. I wonder if you think of me too.
I try not to entertain these thoughts - only to look back to deep what it taught. I used to look at our history with rose tinted glasses.. but I've changed my persception as each moon cycle passes.

Maybe we were always destined to be starcrossed lovers. Always so close but yet so far, moving cities at 16 just to be where you are.
Fate had us flipping coins either way resulting in an undesired outcome - how come? Your so hardheaded and I was always chasing my tail. You let go too easily and I move on too fast. We could never really leave the past in the past.

Maybe only on those nights as we lay entwined,
did the stars ever really align
How can both signs ruled by mercury
Still struggle to communicate
Instead held it in and let these feelings accumulate.
Just like my sign Im always up in air but I always seem gravitate back to your earth... problem was I never really knew my worth.
So I loved you more than I loved myself.
I pushed my feelings aside to collect dust on shelf ~ man I should've dun told you about yourself.

Sometimes we love people not for who they are or how they make us feel. Get caught up try to love ourselves through that person to order to heal.
Did we really see things for what they were or what we wanted them to be.
Do you still blame me?
Without clear communication people are left to assume, you know Im not one to just take things at face value.

But it's calm, I took those glasses off and saw the reality, but In the spiritual realm though, I got my most of clarity.
see you can pretend all you want
but you cant hide that energy
Cz even over a decade the connection never decayed.
Thats the thing with these cycles ~ things have a way of coming back around butwhen interpret the meaning to suit our hearts desires, in the end it all backfires.

We Lit a spark that would ignite a fire and burnt that bridge. Ashes to ashes dust to dust took it too far - got caught up in the lust. I opened my heart up the night I wrote you that letter... same night you closed yours and said forget her. I know sometimes it feels easier to push away out of fear when someone says all the things your too scared to hear.

To me we were in our own quantum reality ~ so what Is time to a multidimensional being,
Who doesnt know how to not love so intensely.
I wonder how many people do we let go of physically but hold onto spiritually without even realizing.
See not all soulmates are meant to stay
And thats a painful lesson Iv had to learn
Each time one universe rips one away.

You never do quite forget your first love and depite the pain you gotta be thankful for the experiences you gain, and I am.
But I needed to cut those cords of attachment with each person I ever loved so I could finally realease and let my heart be at peace within this peice.
So on this night when the moon is full.. I say a final prayer for you.. and I hope you can pray for me too.
I just hope one day you can give me the same understanding I always gave to you.